Can´t stop being me, and I can´t stop my control. Want to be free, but I don´t know what freedom is. Anymore.

Locked myself in for to long, now Im out and I don´t know anything. Not even myself.

Want to fall in love and really feel, but my wounds are not healed yet. Want to stop hurting myself, but my god, I just can´t. Please stop looking at me. I can´t stand the stare.

I know that the pain is passing, at some point. I know it´s not forever. But right now, it´s just to painful to handle.